So Not Feeling It
Tuesday, August 24th, 2010
Hi, friends!
Well, I hit the wrong button on the alarm this morning. I hate when that happens. Technically, I still dozed in and out early enough that I could have gotten up to work out, but I just didn’t talk myself into it. The stairs are going to have to wait until after work. I’m not sure what that will do to my workout schedule for the rest of the week, but whatever it does, I’ll adjust.
I just was not feeling it this morning. I’m having a hard time getting to and staying asleep again. I’ve battled sleep off and on ever since Kyle died. I tend to have the worst fights with it around certain important dates from my previous life. The upcoming date in question is my wedding anniversary. We should be celebrating 17 years of marriage mid-next-week. Sad smile.
It’s still impossible to imagine he’s not here sometimes. I wish he could see his kids. I wish that a ton.
Anyway, writing about why I can’t sleep often ends the trouble. I have no idea why, but it does. It’s almost like I can’t sleep until I honor his memory with some words. Is that weird? It sounds weird now that I read it. Oh well. Widowhood is weird.
When I feel like this, I like to remind myself how good life is. I know it’s true. In no particular order…I have a good job. I have amazing kids. I have a healthy, supportive relationship. I have kind, strong friends. I have a huge, fun family. I have faith. I have health. I have everything I truly need and many things I want.
Life is good.
Seriously.
What helps you remember how good life is when you aren’t feeling it? Do you make a list?
